Stella Carrier in Heaven
Afterlife Journal Entry 15- Freestyle Story Friday December 30, 2016 ‘Second
Chance At Becoming A Financial Provider’ Freestyle Story by Stella Carrier
(inspired by the song Second Chance by Shinedown)
I Call Upon What I
Imagine To Be The Influence of Benevolent Spirits From the Heavenly Realms, my
higher self, and my celestial spirit ally team for creativity in both my
writings and all other areas of my life both present and future
I am a radiant being of light.
My path and life's work are my highest priorities.
I trust my intuition.
I follow my life purpose as it unfolds from moment
to moment. I choose my highest path each moment.
To My Heavenly Spiritual Ally Team Based in the Afterlife Journal Entry 15-Started Friday December 30, 2016
I go for a walk towards my weight loss
goals and to help put me asleep for the night. Quirky and daring songs played
on my phone such as these help my walk go by happier as the music plays on my
cell phone; Metro Station Shake It,Trip
Switch by Nothing But Thieves ,Heaven by Bryan Adams, Cake by the Ocean
DNCE, Second Chance Shinedown. I listen
to an eclectic mix of music and I frequently enjoy getting many of my song
ideas from the radio, youtube music, Amazon music, Pandora music, iheartradio,
British charts, Swiss charts etc. After
the Second Chance song by Shinedown comes on via one of my personalized
favorite radio stations on iheartradio, I start to think of how I can give
myself second chances in life especially when it comes to fulfilling and
sticking to 2 or 3 New Year’s resolutions.
Once I
go back to my apartment, I kiss and hug my husband before he starts another
Minecraft game. As for me, I decide to settle down for a little bit to watch
the 1974 Great Gatsby film (starring Robert Redford, Mia Farrow, Sam Waterson,
Bruce Dern, Scott Wilson etc.). I know
that Mia Farrow gave a superb performance in the film and yet I cringed when
her character told her love interest that he was initially too poor to catch
her attention. Yes, I understand that many women and now even men both young
and old want a partner with ambition andor financial security/stability.
However, watching this film after Robert Redford was referenced in my dream
made me realize that my intuition was maybe trying to tell me something. Knowing that I am off from work for a certain
amount of time that I prefer to keep secret, I go ahead and indulge in an Ever
After High cartoon marathon on Netflix, which has me watching Season 5 Winter
Episode one Snowbay through episode 4 Crystal Rose. As both a tv watcher and
writer, watching this tv series helps give me an idea when it comes to applying
persistence and powering through tough external conditions towards an intended
outcome.
I then
watch episode 9 of the Good Place tv show titled Someone Like Me where Kristen Bell’s character realizes that all is
not lost for a person even if they initially question whether they will easily
fit into a place or not. Less than fifteen minutes later, I hop into the shower
and the song The Walker by Fitz and The Tantrums plays as I realize that I need
to do more walking the next day and a little less television. The song That
Power by Will.i.am of the Black Eyed Peas feat. Justin Bieber plays as I let my
husband know that I am heading to bed but that I will be patiently waiting for
him.
I sit up in my bed and look at two choices to read before
nodding off to sleep. I can either look at the Outwitting The Devil book by
Napoleon Hill and Sharon Lechter and analyze the feature of page 83 dealing
with drifting in all areas of life. I intuitively take that as a sign from my
higher self/soul that I need to believe in the power and miracles of having my
mind made up on personal goals regardless of how many others support andor
scoff at my plans. Something influences me to look at the Amazon kindleplayer
that my mother in law gave me. I then start
to look through one of the Amazon kindlebooks that I just ordered less than 24
hours before called Unlimited Memory by Kevin Horsley (after seeing it as a
sponsored item in connection to an item that I was looking to read relating to
my intuition on Amazon). This was partially because I truthfully have been
getting an intuitive inkling that I need to get my hands on what I can (and
that is reasonably within my budget to increase my wisdom).
A short
time later, I find myself in some type of courtroom with an orange and gold
building and some silver and red robot comes up to me and says your honor I
present to you a woman who takes an interest and keeping her options open in
writing children’s books yet she herself is voluntarily child-free. I look up
at the judge who is dressed in some type of witch costume with a white
porcelain mask. The robot features my exhibit of my online review of the
book from May 5, 2013
by Kaye
D. Walters
Edition: Paperback |
The witch costume
judge with the white porcelain masks how do I plead. For whatever crazy reason,
I confess by prefacing “Your honor what
the red robot said is true”. However, my decision to be voluntarily child-free
is independent from the fact that I have nothing against parents or children.
Some of the people I admire and friends in my waking life are parents, which I
understand that you accept and show respect to their children. I then go on to say, Go ahead and do with me
what you must but my decision to be child-free has to do more with practical
reasons involving me having limited family support and (with a feeling of being
reluctant to admit) needing to learn how to make and keep more friends. I have
noticed that the happiest mothers in my life have both strong family andor
friendship support networks, plus I am far from being the golden sheep of my
family and more like the black sheep, I prefer to explain my decision to be
childfree even more other than to admit that I would need to completely own my
own house, be completely debt-free, and have at least 20 years of living
expenses to cover me and my husband before you can bully me to change my mind.
With that both the red colored robot, and the rest of the
robots in the courtroom gasped. I was curious and unsure what was about to
happen except for the judge telling the robot “take this woman to see her
destiny”. The red colored robot gently but firmly pushes me out the door into a
galaxy full of stars before I travel through a rainbow colored tunnel. I then
land on a naval ship that looks to be either an aircraft carrier or some type
of amphibious ship and I even see myself
in a blue camouflage uniform that looks like the one in this website
navy times link;
https://www.navytimes.com/story/military/2016/08/07/every-sailor-getting-new-camouflage-uniform/88067532/
Every Sailor Is Getting a New Camouflage Uniform
As the ship pulls in, I noticed that there is a large crowd
waiting on the pier with what looks to be over 20 people holding a sign saying
Welcome Norfolk Virginia Sailors To Fairfield Maryland. Excitement and
Happiness comes over me as I see my husband waiting for me in the crowd. Out of
curiousity, I ask my husband where he is visiting me from. With an
understandable weird but loving look he tells me, “My Love, remember that I
asked time off from work to visit with you”.
I have so much to tell you because I have been promoted and now I even
have more money to move into a better apartment near my job in College Park
Maryland. I get the feeling that my husband is still living in the Hyattsville,
Maryland area and at his current job. Much to even my surprise, I am accepting
of him wanting to stay in the Washington D.C. area and use his extra money to
move to a better apartment in College Park, Maryland. I find myself caring more
about making the most of my time with him rather than question him about moving
to Norfolk Virginia.
My
husband, in a cheerful and encouraging voice tells me to come with him and I
notice that there is a party being held less than a half mile from where the
ship pulled in to this Fairfield Maryland area. I notice that the party seems
to be attended by what looks to be at least over 100 people and whoever is
organizing this party is a fan of the 1974 Great Gatsby film (starring Robert
Redford, Mia Farrow, Sam Waterson etc) and who also enjoys music from the 2013
film starring Leonardo DiCaprio, Tobey Maguire, Carey Mulligan etc. This is
because I noticed that the tents, decorations, and tables are similar to scenes
in the 1974 Great Gatsby film. Yet, I also heard the end of the A Little Party
Never Killed Nobody song feat. Fergie, Goonrock, Q-tip and the beginning of the
song Crazy In Love by Emeli Sande and Bryan Ferry (which I am guessing to be a
musical tribute cover of the song of the same name by Beyonce and JayZ). Less than a few feet from me, I noticed that there is a castle with
wallpaper of different characters from the Ever After High cartoon (which I’m
guessing is to keep the kids occupied who are in attendance).
I hear some female voice calling me from a purple colored
tent, but before I can ask my husband if I can check out the voice I turn
around and notice that he is over 100 yards away. I see him talking to his mom
(mother in law) and it seems important and so I am hesitant to bother him. I am
relieved that she is in a happy mood with whatever they are talking about by
the way she smiles when she waves to me from a distance and in a friendly tone
projects her voice to tell me that they are going to be right back.
I then figure maybe my husband and his mom are going to be
fine with me checking out what is in the tent when I noticed that there is both
a male and female spirit inside the tent dressed in orange robes and blue hats
except this time with light pink masks. The male is silent and just watches me
with eyes in a color that it is tricky of me to make out in a distance. The female spirit then says, we come in love
and peace with the following messages; Please continue to be mindful with what
you post and keep online because what you post online, positive and negative
can also have an effect on your immediate reality. You are starting to get
wiser with being mindful of what you post and we ask you to continue to strive
to only post what you are going to find helpful for your preferred reality
regardless of what others think. This is common knowledge in the heavenly
realms that your main spirit guide gave permission for me to relay to you. The female spirit then says one last thing
before you awake, Please consider doing your freestyle storytelling online to
just ten times a month with around 410-450 words per story until we tell you
otherwise. This is not to punish you, rather it is the opposite. You are
entering an important phase in your life where your luck and good fortune are
getting better each day. You are also more than capable of making joyful and
powerful progress in all areas of your life while fulfilling your destiny/life
purpose to be an improved financial provider for both you and your husband.
Writing ten times a month with around 410-450
words (2 times a week twice a month and 3 times a week twice a month) is
going to allow your celestial spirit ally team and higher self to come through
with their benevolent influence while allowing enough time for you to do the
other things you need to do to fulfill your life purpose and other goals. It is
ok if you have to show your playbook of striving to only include 5 key sources
of information for each story. More is going to make sense to you within 24
hours after the end of your current lifetime. The key is for you to do this in
order to help us help you fulfill part of your key life purpose which involves
you becoming a more powerful and creative financial provider. With love we must
depart for now, but this is only the beginning of our work with you. They both
disappear and I leave outside of the tent to hear the end of the song Personal
Jesus by Depeche Mode and hear the end of the song Head Over Heels by Tears for
Fears. I feel a giant hand hug my waist until I wake up and feel my husband
snuggle up next to me before I head back to sleep.
Affirmations For Today
I keep up a pace that proves beneficial to me as I take in a
rare and beautiful view.
I create lasting and joyful progress in all areas of my life
regardless of whether strangers andor those who know me choose to intervene in my
life.
I use my intuition and wise logic when it comes to making
progress/strides in all areas of my life regardless of any challenges that
surface.
I discover many important things about myself that help me
to tap into my creativity and talents.
I’m learning more each day on how to do andor say something
that seems just right due to my
intuition growing more each day.
I’m in the process of learning to be settle-free when it
comes to aiming for what I truly believe that I deserve in the area of owning a
completely paid for home for my husband and I (including our choice of
residence for the long-term).
Regardless of what my most influential andor persuasive
critics may say, I am more than capable
to creating a life of staying independent and mastering my life purpose of
being a financial provider.
I look through both obvious and not so obvious sources to
increase the concept of wisdom in all areas of my life.
Story resources
Outwitting The Devil book by Napoleon Hill and Sharon
Lechter
Ever After High Season 5 Episode One of Snowbay to Episode
Four Crystal Rose
The Great Gatsby (1974 movie starring Robert Redford, Mia
Farrow)
The Great Gatsby Soundtrack (2013 movie soundtrack feat
Leonardo DiCaprio
Tobey Maguire, Carey Mulligan, various musicians)
The Good Place tv show
Second Chance
Shinedown
Cake by the Ocean DNCE
The
Good Place EP Explains Why We
Only Get 4 More Episodes This Season
Metro Station Shake It
Trip Switch by
Nothing But Thieves
Heaven by Bryan Adams
image from
amazon.com
Review of the Robert Redford The Great Gatsby 1974 movie-I
plan on keeping an open mind to
Still doing Amazon reviews in the future. I have personal reasons why I prefer to post
this review on Googleplus, tumblr, and wordpress only for right now. Anyhow, The Great Gatsby film was fun to watch
and I confess that I was curious to watch it after Robert Redford was
referenced in one of my more recent dreams for whatever reason. Anyhow, Robert Redford gave a great
performance as Jay Gatsby and Mia Farrow as Daisy Buchanan. Additionally Sam Waterson played an important
role as Nick Carraway, both Daisy’s cousin and a loyal friend to Jay Gatsby.
Then there is the love triangle (or was it some type of love square) involving
Daisy Buchanan’s husband Tom Buchanan (played by Bruce Dern) and Myrtle Wilson (played by Karen Black). Myrtle
Wilson is a married woman herself who is married in the movie to George Wilson
(played by Scott Wilson). Romantic sparks fly when Jay Gatsby (Robert Redford)
is reunited with Daisy Buchanan (Mia Farrow). Please understand that I’m more
than aware that Mia Farrow was doing her job brilliantly when portraying a
woman who had the romantic heart of two men. However, in real-life, a good
friend would tell a character such as Daisy Buchanan to admit the truth to her
lover Jay Gatsby that she plans on staying married to her husband and only
wants a lover type of relationship or
one could say romantic fling. The movie
was good to watch and I was mainly influenced to eventually watch this movie on
Netflix due to a recent innocent dream that I had where Robert Redford was
referenced for whatever reason and remembering during a July 2016 visit to my
mother in law where it was either her or one of her friends that mentioned
Robert Redford and this film to me (because one or more of them know that I
enjoyed Leonardo DiCaprio’s performance in the 2013 The Great Gatsby film
regardless of what others think). I am
glad to have watched the 1974 film starring Robert Redford, Mia Farrow, Bruce
Dern, Sam Waterson, Scott Wilson,the late Karen Black. However, I confess that
it made me feel uncomfortable how
gold-diggerish the characters of Daisy Buchanan and Myrtle Wilson were
portrayed. I think it is because my husband and I have stayed married and love
each other through both of our changing incomes for nearly 13 years (we
fortunately celebrate our 13 year wedding anniversary on January 22, 2017).
Additionally, I have survived the sensing of some people stereotyping me when
looking at me and him when they discover that we’re married. There are times in our marriage where we have
both made similar amounts of money, when I was the breadwinner (2005-2009 and
2011-2013) and he became the breadwinner (December 2015 to now). My husband
knows that I love him and I married him and intend to stay married to him for
who he is. However, both my recent dream and the movie made me realize that it
is up to me to prove to myself that I can learn to financially provide better
for my husband and I not to prove to others that I can fend for myself or that
I am not a gold-digger. Rather to prove to myself that I can learn to be a
better financial provider to make enough money to cover expenses and boost at least a year long savings account for my
husband and I regardless of skepticism on whether I can learn to financially
fend for myself. On the plus side, watching this movie has helped me make up my
mind even more to go back to school within the next year or less while
continuing to work full-time in order to
prove to myself that I can be a great financial provider for my husband and I
regardless of his income(I would just only take one class at a time so that I
can still go to school and work at the same time). However, I would prefer to
stay at my current University of Maryland College Park food services job if
possible. I admit that what I plan on studying would go more towards my
relocation and new life in Norfolk Virginia. Which, is for another post,
because I am currently still deciding the best timeframe to relocate because I
enjoy living in the Hyattsville Maryland and I’m content with my current job (I
have to secretly keep it close to my heart on what changed for me to want to
stay at my current job until I’m ready to relocate). Additionally, I promised
my husband to be supportive of him staying at his current job even if I initially
relocate before him and be supportive of him staying in the Washington D.C.
area. Additionally, I want to avoid saying anything even on my personal blog
posts until I finalized plans with my husband and wisely pick the best time to
tell my current employer to give at least a 3 week and maybe even a 4 week
notice (because I understand that an employer does not have to allow you to
work any further even if you are only voluntarily quitting your job because you
are relocating outside of the immediate area of the employment).
My Past Reviews on Amazon pertaining to the 2013 Great
Gatsby music soundtrack featuring various artists such as Lana Del Rey Fergie
etc, the 2013 movie starring Leonardo DiCaprio, Carey Mulligan, Tobey Maguire,
and the 2013 movie tie in book of the Great Gatsby
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 Wealthy Man Who Yearns For Love, May 10, 2013
"The
Great Gatsby Film" featured a wild but entertaining tale of the
complicated love triangle between the characters of Tom Buchanan, Myrtle
Wilson, Daisy Buchanan, and Jay Gatsby. Joel Edgerton and Isla Fisher did
good jobs in capturing the torrid but scandalous romance between Tom Buchanan
and Myrtle Wilson. However, I admit that my three favorite character
portrayals in the movie were that of Jay Gatsby (played in an extraordinary
way by Leonardo Dicaprio), Daisy Buchanan (sensual and brilliant portrayal),
and Nick Carraway (outstanding performance by Tobey Maguire). I personally
feel that Dicaprio really became one with the Jay Gatsby character and
brought the Gatsby persona to life. It was both touching and tragic to see
how far he went for his love of Daisy Buchanan. You then have the character
of Daisy Buchanan who is mutually in love with Jay Gatsby, and is conflicted
on what to do. Last, but not least, there is the heartfelt depiction of Nick
Carraway as one with a strong conscience and sees mainly the best in Jay
Gatsby. However, his natural concern for Gatsby towards the end of the film
was portrayed in an extreme light. "
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Lavish Gatsby Soundtrack, May 8, 2013
This
review is from: Music From Baz Luhrmann's Film The Great Gatsby (Deluxe )
[Explicit] (MP3 Music)
"The
Great Gatsby" (Music From Baz Luhrmann's Film) soundtrack features a
diverse range of various artists and 21 music tracks. Obviously, personal
favorites are going to vary depending on personal tastes, but I admit that
the following songs are among some of the songs that I enjoyed from this
soundtrack: "Young and Beautiful" by Lana Del Rey, "Crazy In
Love" (Kid Koala Version) by Emeli Sande & The Bryan Ferry
Orchestra, "Bang Bang" by Will.i.a.m., "A Little Party Never
Killed Nobody" (All We Got) by Fergie, Q-Tip, and Goonrock, Love Is The
Drug by Bryan Ferry Orchestra, "Where The Wind Blows" by Coco
O.,"Into The Past" by Nero, and Over The Love (Of You) by Florence
&The Machine&SBTRKT. Beyonce, Andre 3000, Jay Z,Kanye West, Sia,
Gotye, and Jack White are also among some of the musicians featured on this
collection. "The Great Gatsby" (Music From Baz Luhrmann's Film)
soundtrack is an excellent choice for those who are interested in the
upcoming film and/or have eclectic music tastes.
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| Relationship Gatsby, May 5, 2013
"The
Great Gatsby" by F. Scott Fitzgerald touches on the delicate issue of an
affluent man named Jay Gatsby who has the option to buy the finer things in
life. Gatsby is very much in love with Daisy Buchanan, but she is married to
someone else (Tom Buchanan). A layer of complexity grows as both Daisy and
Gatsby end up interacting with similar circles of people. "The Great
Gatsby" by F. Scott Fitzgerald also happens to be set in the prosperous
time of what has been called the "Roaring Twenties."
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I still deal with well meaning people who ask why I am
voluntarily child-free, which prompted me to post this review and include it in
today’s freestyle story
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Child-free Lifestyle, May 5, 2013
This
review is from: Kidfree & Lovin' It! - Whether by Choice, Chance or
Circumstance: The complete guide to living as a non-parent (Volume 1)
(Paperback)
Reluctantly,
I confess that it is strictly my own decision and idea to be child-free
(since the age of 8). I say reluctantly because my husband expressed his
feeling that I would have made a good mother and that we would have had
beautiful children together. However, his decision to spend the rest of his
current lifetime with me is constant even with my choice to be child-free.I
must start this review by prefacing that there are people in my life that I
admire who happen to be parents. I admit that I'm not sure how my biological
mother and adoptive mother would have felt about my firm decision to stay
childfree. This is only because both women died within 18 months of each
other and before I married my current husband (who I met in 2002 and married
in 2004). However, I would like to think that both my biological mother and
adoptive mother would have been supportive about my certain decision to stay
childfree (if they were still alive today).Additionally, most women that I
see who truly enjoy being mothers are depression free, are prosperous enough
to afford help in caring for their children and/or have parents around who
would immediately drop what they were doing to help look after the children.
However, I have known since I was 8 years old that I preferred to be
child-free. One of my main satellite reasons that I chose the child-free path
is related to my intent to be available to freely work various shifts in this
competitive employer's market. Additionally, there are some legal and
respectable career plans that I have and being child-free helps to more
freely facilitate those options. Last, but not least, there are more than
enough families who have more than four children per household (just in the
United States of America alone) to make up for the number of men and women
who voluntarily decide to stay child-free.
Fortunately, my husband is supportive of my decision to be kid-free for the rest of my current life and has even been aware of my child-free choice even before he proposed to me back in 2003. I purchased "Kid-free & Lovin It" by Kaye D. Walters as a book of support because of the judgement and questions from others that my husband and I have dealt with as a result from both of us mutually agreeing to be child-free. There are featured stories of those who have also chosen the offspring free route and effective rebuttals to various arguments and/or concerns that some well-meaning men and women may mention to child-free couples. I also like that there are various child-free resources listed in the back (in terms of websites, groups, and books). |
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One of the Ever After High Books That I Have Reviewed on
Amazon.com, which would help explain to others my interest in the Netflix Ever
After Cartoon Series as both an audience watcher and as an aspiring
writer/author for an unofficial writing masterclass.
Format: Hardcover Verified Purchase
I admit that
I’m mainly aware of the Ever After High series due to seeing the book and the
dolls featured at my job around late 2013. I remember putting up one of the
Ever After High dolls during the beginning weeks around the my job’s grand
opening to the public. I was thinking that the summary of one of the dolls I
saw does sound like a good cartoon to watch. Imagine my surprise when I did
discover that there is both a cartoon and book series around the Ever After
High Dolls. This book Ever After High once Upon A Time; A Story Collection by
Shannon Hale is a fascinating and original read for both aspiring
writers/scriptwriters and people who simply enjoy uplifting fantasy stories
(including for children obviously). This book creatively tells various tales of
offspring who are living a happy and enriching life but there is also
understandable emotional conflict around wanting to avoid following in the
family legacy if it is shadowy. For instance, the story of Apple White and The
Ebony-Haired Legacy shows a girl who very much enjoys life while preparing to
follow a destiny similar to her mother Snow White. Quirky pop culture
references are shrewdly sprinkled and Snow White is mentioned as being a big
music lover and an implied fan of One Reflection and their song You Don’t Know
You’re Charming (I’m guessing a respectful tribute to One Direction’s You Don’t
Know You’re Beautiful). Apple White enjoys listening to music on her Mirror
Phone. Then there is the story of the Raven Queen and the Mirror Prison featuring
Raven Queen, a direct descendant of the Evil Queen in the story of Snow White
(due to Raven Queen being the Evil Queen’s daughter). Raven Queen loves her
mother, but is understandably conflicted about following the dark destiny that
her mother expects her to. Raven Queen is mentioned as being an implied fan of
Tailor Quick because she is listening to a Tailor Quick album on her MirrorPod
(I’m guessing polite homage to the Apple iphone and/or Apple ipod).
Fortunately, the enjoyable cartoon series of Ever After High is currently
available for free on Netflix and Youtube (although I’m currently unsure of how
long it will be free). Watching the cartoon series gives an important creative
glimpse into the characters and plot development of ever after high. For me,
one of the reasons why I’m glad to have unexpectedly come across the series (as
an aspiring writer/scriptwriter) is due to the brilliant and unique story
development in an enchanting mystical world.
